dreams

I've been having strange dreams recently, all put together with the pieces of the last few and the next few days, but synthesized in ways that, in perfect dream fashion, don't make any sense. My anxieties, in my dreams, are transmuted into actual physical mistakes--what a relief!--but they're nevertheless there, and even asleep, I know no better what to do about them.

Sometimes you have a dream in which you solve the problem, social or emotional or academic (less often!) which is plaguing you, and the dream, and the moment in the dream when you realize that you did it! it worked! it's okay! is so good, so very good, that when you wake up and realize that, not only have you not taken care of it, but you really can't do it the way you did it in the dream, if you can even remember all the bits of it, well, you end up wandering around in a miserable daze for the next few days, until the remembered euphoria fades and you're able to tackle reality again.

Luckily, this isn't one of those times.